Resignation

May 30, 2014
16:50

   I'm sitting in from of my computer, thinking, whether or not to submit my resignation letter by 5pm.

I know its a huge thing for me because, i don't yet still have a job for replacement. I'm worried that, I cannot continue living as what I am today. I don't have enough money to support my needs in a long way run after my resignation. I'm worried that I can't continue, hitting the gym (which I pay until October) often, and paying the rent. I know its hard to deal with life at my age of 23, from which I'm independent from my family. I shouldn't think of this, I should have think of other alternatives. But for now, I need to be brave for this decision I've made.

   My heart is pounding like a beat of a drum and bass from a dub step music. With all these things in my mind, I'm still having and believing that a fantastic, amazing, majestic future awaits for me.

   I know that my current job causes a lot of stress with me, that is why I can't move on. I need some change, I need to be stronger than who I am before.

  Alright, this is it, I'm going to submit it right now.

Procrastination

May 27, 2014
16:44

  There's so many task to be done, and i'm not doing anything. I'm tired of coding shizzz. I started to hate my job, i really do. Procrastination really absorbed deep in my body.

  Anyway, I'll tell you what happen a while ago. I've been interviewed by the CEO of the company I've apply last week. I was in Fathom with what i have done, if I've given the best i could have, etc. But one thing for sure, I'd given all of me, so whatever happens, it benefits me as a grown up which is nice. I always had this thought in my mind that i can't stop thinking of failing. I shouldn't think of that, let things do happen for me now as i've done my part.

Epiphany

May 13, 2014
16:00

   I'm still here at the office, bored, and too tired of coding. This novel `Unbroken` which i already finished reading, got struck on my mind and always, something from it whenever i remember makes me weep. So i have the interest to write again. Atleast i've done something productive.

  One of my favourite character aside from Louie of course is Phil. I'm glad that even when Louie and Phil got separated from camp, still this book manage to give information on what happened with him, since i can't find more from it on the internet than this book.

  One thing that captured my attention and gained an Epiphany is that, `Friendship` will not last a lifetime. I was hoping that they would be the best brothers after the war but they didn't. It is described as Phil, was a reserve and modest personality, which interest me because i am the same. I was thinking if he's happy and be fulfilled when the end comes with him. It stated that, until his last years, he'd been into a home for elderly, and then he shared what he'd been through, and the daughter never saw his father very happy before.

   I wish i could talk to someone whose had a very majestic and inspirational life to learn, and for what life can give us.