Lets Run Away to Coron 3rd and Last Day

Dear Future Me,

    Everything's became unpredictable and not going to what I plan, which is to enjoy the last day fully by scuba diving and lagoon bumming in Coron loop. And the thing is, the best thing about not knowing about what's going to happen always have more impact and enjoyment than those of what we foresee.

    That morning, i still felt dizziness, got to throw up couple of times, haven't ate the breakfast, and i feel awful and frightened not able to scuba dive that day. 

    Then, we headed to Coron Divers, (the only Filipino  owned diving services in Coron as per them) (kuya Red endorse us to go with them), got the package of 3.3k for 2 discover dives with Coron Loop boat ride and free lunch. It's actually a good deal, since the boat ride and the meal is included plus the discover dive. Sir Arnie Pabelonio is our dive master, his son Mike is also our dive master, got us to do some dive briefing, hand gestures, to do's and don'ts, had to fits the gears (wet suits and fins) then were ready to go. Before we arrived to the boat, I had a chance to buy a banana fling, just to help me rid of the hangover, well luckily it help, haven't eat anything that time, so it was a relief. 

    After a couple of minutes, we arrived at our 1st destination, which is the Kayangan Lake, Coron's most popular destination. This lake is gorgeously exquisite, the fresh water surrounding some island fragments blending the color of blue and green, the tree's, rocks, lake, it's one of a hell(i mean heaven) mother earth had created. Got to trek up and the forest up and down just to get the real deal, the lake. Luckily, it's was a sweaty trek, I think that time, I got rid of the alcohol in my system, so I'am becoming something, the fire is burning in my heart, enthusiastically becoming the wild person I'am. We all started to get wild, owning the moment, snorkeling and free swimming the area. We even had to jump somewhere there, though it wasn't that high, cause the rocks was a bit sharp, but it was effin fun. I got to practice my diving skills, but i still can't get deep, only a few feet, then my body automatically floats. Urghhh I wish I was as good as Mike, he was fucking awesome, free diving deeply and stay there for a couple of minutes. He even take us pictures underwater, and he's willing to do it for free, he doesn't look irritated by us cause we' request many things, he looks nice and enjoying our craziness. He's good with conversing and giving us our precious picture moments under water. Kudos to Mike, better buy him a beer next time.

    After hours, (yep we linger there for hours) we headed directly to Sunset Beach which we were going to pursue our 1st diving endeavor. We ate our lunch which they've prepared (Parrot Fish, some chicken tinola, kinilaw? i forgot). Then, the moment we've been waiting for, the diving experience. Our group divided into 2, so they can clearly trained us well and be mindful of what were going to do. I've got to dive the 2nd turn, expecting to be bored but wait, they even offered us they're Kayak boats for free to roam around the beach. It was a bonus for us, having to Kayak around the island was precious, the tides was calm, perfect for that moment.

    Using the oxygen tank for the first time was frightening, I admit that I got somewhat panic but got to managed using it for a couple of minutes under water. Yeah that's the first step they've taught us, familiarizing using the oxygen tank, before they teach us the basic steps for diving. Mask clearing, regulating, equalizing under water, this ain't no joke and be serious learning all of this, its a life to go situation. Just be relax and always be mindful of everything your diving master is telling you, then you can do it properly without haste of course. I've managed to do it properly that's why i manage to enjoy every moment under water looking at creatures that you don't usually see closely. Fishes roaming around you, big clams pumping (haven't thought it), the moment was one of a kind and unforgettable. A life achievement I've got my whole life living.

    After a while resting, we headed to our 2nd dive, the Skeleton Wreck, much deeper than the 1st one. Here I have to equalize very often, the pressure is real. I have witness to see it clearly, the feeling was enormous, seeing a big ship surrounded with corals all over it, hugely exquisite thing I've ever saw.

    I wish my action cam is still working that time. I just can't get enough, I want more from it. It was the best day of my life. There's a lot more Ship Wrecks around Coron that I will be back to witness. I promise I will be back.

    I'm really into pursuing to get an Open Water diving license after this experience. I know to myself that i need to explore the other ship wrecks Coron has to offer, and the whole Philippines and lastly around the world.

    All I can say is, I'm into the path I like to live with, and I'm happy walking towards it.

Lets Run Away to Coron 2nd Day

Dear Future Me,

    Carpe Diem!! Carpe Diem!!, woke up early, packing things up, getting ready for our island hopping endeavor. Our group had hire a private boat tour (Kuya Red) to bring us to 4 destinations. This is a little pricey, but since we're 9 in group, that doesn't cause us too much, also Kuya Red already bought our lunch for the day (crabs, fish, chicken adobo, some seaweeds, etc) they even cooked it on the boat.

    After almost or more than an hour of boat ride, we're now in the 1st destination, the Lusong Island Gunboat Wreck. Excitingly gearing up the lifevest and snorkel mask, we've jump the boat jubilantly. The morning is fine and the sun is shining, perfect for viewing what's under. Corals, majestically shining, fishes twerking, and.... wait for it!!!.. 

    

    Bang!! the unbelievably gunboat wreck from  the 40's (war era)(my 1st time seeing one so, the hype is on me). Coron is more popular being the wreck capital of the Philippines, I wonder what terror did these things done way back then, now, its a tourist destination (if your brave enough).  The sunken gunboat has corals all over it, and there's a part where you can actually stand still(its not that deep). 

    

the part where you can actually stand

    Unfortunately, things happen, as my action camera's waterproof case leaked. In my hurry getting back to the boat, another misfortune happen, got a long somewhat deep cut on my feet. I haven't notice it until i went aboard the boat, then my friend told me that there was blood, an awful amount on the boat floor. The boatman said that the gunboat wreck has still rusty sharp edges, thankfully, they've got some first aid kit on board. Kuya Red and kuya Boatman assist me cleaning my cut, I have to clean first the rust  around the cut with saltwater, then they put Hydrogen Peroxide, Betadine and some bandages around it.

last shot from my Action Camera

     Even with those misfortunes, it doesn't stop my ego and euphoric vibe to carry on and seize the day.

    Just a few minutes, we headed to the Lusong Island Coral Garden. Again, enthusiastically gearing up the snorkeling set, having a smile from my face forgetting what just happen I jump from the boat. It was surreal for me, looking these corals, corals everywhere, different color, vibrantly shining under the fine weather, small fishes homing, was like a moment stopper. Every where you look, very instagrammable, no need for filter, the color blending is insane. I don't have photo since my action camera got broke, but I can still see it vividly in my head, really unforgettable moment. 

    Our 3rd destination is the Pass Island where we had to eat our lunch and had a few beach bumming plus unlimited photos :) . On our way, a Rain Storm is approaching in distance, then a minute, it was above us. It got this hard drops, not as hard as a hail (from our experience in Fortune Island), but still were all like in the fetal position suiting our lifevest. I didn't feel fear that time, because the wave is stable, the boat manage to rode it solemnly, thankfully my friends also, I can tell, being mindful. Everyone even the boat is being stronger than the storm, It's always the best feeling after the storm.

    A beauty one, having the white sands, palm trees, bermuda grass and of course the crystal clear water. Everywhere is instagrammable, plus not being a crowded island. We enjoy sun bathing and playing volleyball (we forgot the Frisbee). After a while, the headed to a hut to eat our lunch. Really scrumptious seafoods, mouth watery aaahhhmmmm uhhhhh. The boatmans was really a good cook, it was heaven.

    Had to rest for a while before we headed to the last Destination of that day, another "Gunboat Wreck", but this time, its much deeper. We jump again, with the excitement, to find out, it was the creepiest sight I've ever saw under water. It was like having a night vision, all you can see  was a blurry green, then there was the gunboat. What I saw was  a long metal, then pretty dark below, seriously a long metal, looks like a horror movie. We didn't stay there for so long, we can't even find some corals, the the boatman tells us a story that some others "fucking saw a huge snake(anaconda)" roaming that island beside the shipwreck. To our horrors, we leave immediately, hahaha what a conversation occur that time, then we take a long way back to the Town Proper.

    Kudo's to this Kuya's, being a greak cook, having the first aid kit, skills of roaming the storm, and lastly the stories and our conversations was an epic day to have and to feel.

    Our day doesn't end with that all, we've got to make it memorable. Kuya Red suggest a KTV somewhere in Town, in the Gateway Hotel something bar. It has a live lounge set up, where you can sing with the singer or your own. I wouldn't let that day end without me singing there live hahaha. I've really got a epic time there, had to sing couple of songs and get drunk as fuck. Seriously, we're all wasted when were headed back to the guest house.

    Dizziness and Puking is real the next morning, which i curse myself from drinking alcohol again, hahaha that bitch hangover!.

Lets Run Away to Coron 1st Day

Dear Future Me,

    I'm having bittersweet feeling today as I'm writing this, missing everything we've done during our brief vacation in Coron, Palawan.

    We arrived there late noon, got to fix our selves at Coron Backpackers Guesthouse. CBG is highly recommended, they've got there room rates at 500 for 2 people, 750 for 4 (it's only a fan room, we don't really need an airconditioned room since It's not summer). Got to prepared our selves for having the town tour ( trekking Mt. Tapyas and having a hot bath at Maquinit HotSpring ). Trekking Mt. Tapyas may be a little challenge (for some) a real sweat jerker. The summit is rewarding with scenic view of Coron islands and hills. The clouds in greyish blue color blending fiery sunset. I'll never forget looking at that priceless moment.

    After our trek, we've gone directly to Maquinit hotsprings (another attraction in Coron Town Proper). It was really hot, scorching hot, perfect bathing after a muscles and fat burning trek. Refreshing way to end our 1st day trip.

What Fortune's Bring

To my Future me,

   It's been  a year since the last time I wrote here on my blog. I've been busy trying to participate which help me to live by the time I was down and depressed. Right now, I'm inspired again to tell you the stories that had happened to me by last year.

   Lately, I've been venturing into mountain climbing, travelling around the Philippines, particularly the most beautiful beaches and provinces my country has to offer. 

The Fortune Island Hols

   

   A lot of first time happened with me in here. My first time experiencing a Hail Storm (literally, cause on a tropical country, this don't usually happen), first time cliff jumping, first time talking to a foreigner about life and lastly my first time puff the Magic Dragon.

   We've arrive there peacefully, the sun is shining so bright, the sky and cloud's surreal, the place looks lively and peacefully. After an hour or less, the rain starts pouring. Inside of us feels happy having the rain feels beneath our skin, we even embrace the beach side just for the urge of it. That's the time i remember the scene from Great Gatsby where Nick's standing in the beach alley, the storm's raging, he's doing nothing, saying  "...So we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past". I will never forget that scenic view, how the water from blue turns into grayish dark matching with the howling wind and raging thunderstorms.

   That time, the winds continues to howls like it gets stronger and stronger, boats gone wild, everything turns into something i wound't even believe to happen. So we run, run back to our tents, which at the time at any moment would flown away, so we hold on each corner of each our tents. We're all shivering, being quiet, hoping for the rain to stop, until Hails pour downs our back. I couldn't believe it at first, i thought it was just the sand drifting by the wind, but it's not, it continues to penetrate our backs that last long for like 20 minutes or so.

   It finally stop, you can hear silence everywhere for a moment. Broken tents, wet belongings, some cellphones got wet broken, we all look awful by that moment. But I see in each of our eyes, the burning spirit that we all live and strongly face the nature were dealing with. There's the line, the infamous silver lining above the sky, a rainbow joining the dance of relief  in our hearts as we continue to make things in proper.

   At dawn, we started to devour alcohol, for that night, the heat is much needed. Ana, our Polish lass entourage, always looks pretty in every angle, brings some Magic Dragon to be puff by everyone who wanted. That's the moment, my first consume of the grass and i forgot how it feels, warm and smoother that the cigar. (I forgot mostly what happened that night) 

    The teen spirit and the madness embraces us, dancing, singing, conversing life, love and world. It's always wonderful to hear the point of view of others with this matter. For instance, I remember we were doing a game,( not actually a game) where we all have to introduce ourselves with the group and tell 3 things that the group's not aware of. It started and you can hear them saying where are they from, how hey like and hate dogs, were all not too drunk by that time to open things up and shake up the conversation. Until it goes on me, I'm also having  a hard time expressing myself and thinking of what should i say. Then suddenly Ana ask, "Have you already fall inlove in your life". I've answered "Yes, I mean, we all are". They ask me to elaborate how did it happened etc,. I feel I have caught off guard that time, I mean effin love talks not my thing. 

   My mouth just opened and say "Honestly, I don't know if i know what falling in love means". Then immediately I ask, "What it is like for you all to fall inlove". The  group began to get interest and talk, ( I think because mostly were girls, they do like having this love talks ). For what i remembered, KC says that she realize it  deeply when the man he is inlove with had gone, Ana says that its like being somewhat stoned (like your not thinking of anything rather than your significant other) and mostly agrees with her.

   After the love talk, life and how living conversation began. Believe me i feel highly Intellectual that that even though I'm not remembering anything, maybe not, but who cares, that's how i feel right now.

   Due to booze and dragons, I woke up not remembering things, just the beautiful stars, the galaxy (which was so clear that it brings back the child in me). 

   The sun is shining brightly, the whole island standing lively like nothing's had happened the day before.

 

Sunday's Night Blues

Oct. 21, 2014

2:17

   Still I can't sleep. I don't know why. I've just finished watching 'Kill Your Darlings'., and for some reasons, the testosterone of my mind, having Racing Thoughts, on how I'm loving history was overflowing.

   That for some reason, I need to take the Cannabis or other alternative, cause the idea that i wanted to come out, couldn't. It's like entangled, I cannot get to focused. I know that there is an idea inside my mind, because the emotion my body is giving me makes me weep in sadness and happiness.

   I need to sleep now, I had to go to work for tomorrow,. I hope someday, I've found out the solution to make my mind release the idea , the Great Idea that my Human Form keeps.

Manifesto

June 11, 2014
10:54

   I'm sitting here, in front of my computer, not doing anything and always thinking this idea that won't get out of my head, so i'll just write this down.

   I'm feeling sick, my body hurts as fuck, and its fucking cold.

   Something that interest me lately are Cliff Diving, and Wingsuit Flying. And from the people whom i promise to do this (E & L), we will and we would. I know that this things are certain to happen.

Resignation

May 30, 2014
16:50

   I'm sitting in from of my computer, thinking, whether or not to submit my resignation letter by 5pm.

I know its a huge thing for me because, i don't yet still have a job for replacement. I'm worried that, I cannot continue living as what I am today. I don't have enough money to support my needs in a long way run after my resignation. I'm worried that I can't continue, hitting the gym (which I pay until October) often, and paying the rent. I know its hard to deal with life at my age of 23, from which I'm independent from my family. I shouldn't think of this, I should have think of other alternatives. But for now, I need to be brave for this decision I've made.

   My heart is pounding like a beat of a drum and bass from a dub step music. With all these things in my mind, I'm still having and believing that a fantastic, amazing, majestic future awaits for me.

   I know that my current job causes a lot of stress with me, that is why I can't move on. I need some change, I need to be stronger than who I am before.

  Alright, this is it, I'm going to submit it right now.